Returning to this blog, renewing my intention.
"Because it hasn't happened, doesn't mean it isn't happening." - Demi Moore
So, to any avid followers of this blog, you may have noticed that I have not posted for a few weeks. Life suddenly got very busy and my intention, to post here on a weekly basis, got buried.
In the last week I felt guilty for not having kept my word to myself. I felt shame, judgment, procrastination, unworthiness. I didn't want to write my blog from this place, because honestly, til now, writing in this blog has been the time in my week for spontaneity, creativity and wonder. The time in my week where I never knew where my thoughts would lead me. So, if I'm already dragging my heels before I even sit down with my thoughts, what's the point?
Instead, I invited myself to stay open to the possibility that one day I may want to write my blog again. And what do you know? A few days ago, Demi Moore's acceptance speech from the Critics Choice award came up in my YouTube feed and she said something that stayed with me: ”Because it hasn't happened, doesn't mean it isn't happening."
So often in my life I have cared more about an end goal than the process. I have created all kinds of hoops for myself to jump through, sometimes even quitting before starting because I couldn't jump the hoops yet, without realizing that what matters is the jumping, not the hoops.
And so I veer from the path I set for myself some months ago, where I would reflect on one of the quotes from my Pause and Reflect card deck. And instead I feel grateful to have come across this speech from Demi Moore, to remind myself that it's not the end result that needs to matter right now.
My intention when starting to write this blog was never about posting here every week. It was about deepening my connection to this incredible work, the Alexander technique, and that certainly is happening! Even in this process of moving away from my blog, I was able to apply the AT principle of being open to all possibilities, to find my way back to it in a fresh and unexpected way. I reconnect to my true intention and stay open to the many ways I get to deepen my connection to this incredible work in the days, weeks and years to come!
Journaling prompts: Where in your life have you set yourself goals to achieve? What is the intention behind the goal? Could those intentions be reached in other ways than the goal you have set for yourself?
