What if all possibilities are available?
Photo by Lathika Vithanage
“No man ever steps into the same river twice, for it's not the same river and he is not the same man.” - Heraclitus
I love that I chose this card today because it's actually one that I journaled on before my AT graduation and it's so interesting to me to see how it resonates differently in a different moment in life - exactly the point of the quote actually!
As I contemplate this card today I can recognize that so many things have taken place in these months that mean I am definitely not the same person I was when I started journaling earlier this year. The very process of journaling meant that I processed and digested a lot of my experiences with violin before and during my AT training. I can now consider myself a graduated AT teacher which brings a change in how I see myself as well as how others see me. And of course the largest transformation of all is that I am now a mother of two.
It was in my struggle with this change to mother of two that I realized how much I expect from myself based on old ideas. I went through a core shakingly transformative experience like that and yet, I expected that I would be the same person as before, doing the same things as before, in the same way. No thought to the changing conditions within me and around me.
If I can have these expectations when very large, obvious transformations happen, what about the smaller less visible changes? What about simply the fact that it's a new day and the earth is in a new position relative to the sun, and I have had one more day of life experience that makes me not the same person as I was yesterday?
In the AT classroom I got to take this to another level and experienced the moment to moment changes that are always happening in each of us and around us if we take the time to stop and listen. To ask the question, am I open to all possibilities in this moment or do I expect something from myself and the world around me?
What I experienced when I stopped and asked myself this question was spaciousness and trust, not just in my mind and body, but also in what could simply unfold when all possibilities are available.
Now, in my life, when I discover that once again I am expecting something from myself based on who I once was, I can stop and ask myself the question: "What if all possibilities are available?", and I experience this spaciousness and trust once again.
Journaling prompts: What are some areas in your life where you are going on autopilot without question? What do you expect from yourself? What happens if you stop and ask yourself the question "What if all possibilities are available?"?
